So we’ve decided to try getting off the grid. Well not entirely, but pretty close.
No TV. No movies. No video games. Basically no visual media of any kind. We are keeping the internet, but severely limiting our time (and scope of use) on it. And good music is encouraged, as is reading, board games, and family time.
Our main motivation for making the change is that we want a better life and foundation for our children. We want a better spirit in our home, a more peaceful feeling, and more simple and clean influence. Why am I inviting this sick world into my home, into the lives of my children… daily, inviting it in? So we want to stop it. Plus it’s a major waste of time. And we want to encourage growth in other areas. Right now they know all the words to the Spon.gebob theme song… I’d rather have my children know all the movements of a symphony, or recognize the best arias from my favorite operas. I’d like to have them read from good books, and develop sharp minds… rather than nimble fingers from playing endless hours of video games. Besides, nimble fingers are available through playing piano. 😉
It’s kind of along the same lines as why I want to do heirloom gardening, and preserve my own food in a root cellar, freezing, and canning… rather than buy from McDonald’s. Back to basics. Back to wholesome. Back to what matters, and what will make you whole and well. (And yes, yes I would LOVE to do the whole full on homesteading life… sigh… if we had the land for it.)
We’ve been kicking this idea around for a few months, but we recently read a book that sort of gave us a kick in the pants to finally take the plunge. (It’s in the top 5 best books I’ve ever read… and that’s saying something because my mom is a literature teacher, so I’ve read A LOT of books.) And while I’ve been slowly decreasing the amount of media in our home for the past several weeks… to tell you the truth, I’m just plain terrified of making the change.
I have very poor health. I don’t know if everyone really understands this or not, or at least the actual severity of it. Granted, I am MUCH better this year (after doing that “program”) than I was even just a year ago, when I literally couldn’t get off the couch for more than about 30 minutes at a time without becoming violently ill. But I’m still so fragile. *cringe* I hate that word. I hate admitting it. I hate that I’ve had to scale back on SO many things that I feel like I *should* be doing. That my best just plain and simple isn’t good enough. That my house, husband, and children all suffer because of me. And because of how bad my health has been, I’ve really relied heavily on media to help me out.
I’m a SAHM, and my husband works LONG hours, so it’s just me. When I’m just too sick to move off the couch or do anything other than change diapers, feed the kids, and lie down again as quickly as I can… the tv has been such a help to make me feel like my kids were at least happy and occupied. Though I still felt crappy about it. But now I’m much better and am doing much more… though if I push too hard I still end up back on that couch again. Trouble is, I don’t know where the “line” is… the line between doing my best and doing too much and ending up sick. It’s a bit different every day, and I only know where it is once I’ve crossed it. Then I have about 3 days of flat on the couch.
So I’m trying to come up with a plan to make it work… without sending me to the looney bin. Maybe a full on lesson plan/schedule like you’d do for daycare or a school? But what activities? What do we do all day that THEY will BOTH (5 and 1 year old) will be happy with, and that also isn’t too much for me to handle? I’m barely up to making dinner every night again, and just *trying* to get to the point of getting the house cleaned on a regular basis… and that feels beyond my reach. And adding this? Oy. I am so overwhelmed and intimidated.
But I also believe that it is the best thing. That it will bless our lives in so many ways, IF I can be strong enough to make it work. That feels like a big if. But I’m determined to give it my all. I just hope that “my all” is enough for this. Praying for help and guidance in this, because I believe it’s His will for my family… and I also completely believe that He never tells you to do something without making it possible. *gulp* So we’re diving in.
Any prayers or advice are very much appreciated…